Sång för ett webbhotell

Mitt webbhotell det rullar på
Och ingen downtime vill jag få
För servrarna tickar lugnt och skönt
Kontrollpanelen lyser grönt.

  Yeah, yeah, ingen kan bli vrång,
  När jag sjunger min webbhotellssång.

På webben kan man surfa runt
Även om det mesta liknar strunt
Men vem bryr sig när allt är fritt
Som delas ut från webbhotellet mitt.

  Yeah, yeah, natten kan bli lång,
  När jag sjunger min webbhotellssång.

När strömmen ryker och allt blir svart
Och ingen annan dator kommer någonvart
Jag njuter då fullt av en vacker sonat
Från mitt fina reservkraftsaggregat.

  Yeah, yeah, alla servrar är igång
  När jag sjunger min webbhotellssång.

(Jag erkänner att jag skrev den här sången för att bli den enda i världen som har en sökträff på ordet “webbhotellssång”.)

An Invoicing Song

Off to a good start, hmm?

Invoicing can be a pain
When it’s just a thing
That you’ve been told to do
And all the numbing mindlessness
Of daily chores done nonetheless
Exciting as the flu
I wish instead for meadows green
And things that I have never seen
And happiness and bluer skies to come
To my computer screen…

Think Simon and Garfunkel and a simple guitar to accompany it. Beautiful. :)

Passion

My CEO recently described me as “something as unusual as a technician with a sense for design”.

It flattered me; because I’ve never seen myself as a technician. Although I am a software developer and build computer systems for a living, sort of, there’s a hidden quality that rests within me that perhaps is not immediately obvious to everyone:

Passion!

As calm as I am outside, inside I am a very passionate person. Sometimes I feel like my emotions are so intense, my whole nervous system so sensitive, that I can literally pick apart an orchestral work and step right into it, disassembling the sound as I listen to it and placing the woodwinds, brass and strings around me.

I guess that’s why I like music so much: The strings of my heart quiver when I hear music, like the strings of a violin guided by the touch of a skilled violinist. My soul can soar to unknown heights when it’s in sync with music that’s playing (which is a very good reason why I shouldn’t listen to opera at work, because I won’t get any work done) — and likewise, when trying to concentrate on work and someone else turns on the radio with some mindless beat music, I plunge to the very depths of despair.

Because I’m like that… Passionate.

It becomes a problem when I have to do administration at work. I should have sent out invoices this week; I remind myself every day to do it. (I’m going to do it tomorrow. Really. No, really!) And yet… it’s infinitely more fun to work on the new server; plunging into the depths of system configuration, reading books and FAQ’s, searching for clues and answers. Like a painter, with every stroke of the brush building towards the final picture, I add scripts, config files, download yum packages, step by step ever so carefully completing the server. It’s something I can pour all of my heart into, focusing all my energy upon it and storming this challenge with every intellectual capacity I have.

Yeah, the invoices. Right. Doing administration chores is … about as much fun as assembling parts at a factory. Like telling an artist who just created a beautiful painting, “okay, good, now make fifty of these and we should be about set”. And it’s not that I think less of that type of work (after all, it needs being done!) – it’s just that it’s not how I function.

So I have to motivate myself, find tricks to get things done, and focus, focus. Once I get into it, it usually works out okay, but I squirm and agonize over it for days. Because there’s no passion in it. And that’s why I sometimes pull off great and wonderful feats at work, and in between those moments my productivity can drop to … well, below everyone elses for sure. I usually manage to save the day by being kind of fast at doing things, once I get around to it, but…

I guess that’s why I write poetry about people I fall in love with – because I have to get those stormy feelings out somehow. I pity the woman that one day might fall in love with me… :)

So it’s back to work tomorrow – moving domains, sending out invoices, answering the phone and handling support calls. Chores, administration. Blech. But it needs being done.

But, my, that new server sure looks interesting…

A Composition’s Right to Live

A long time ago, I started writing a little piece of music. It was back in Montana, when I visited a little town called Reed Point for two weeks, and where I, to amuse myself, sat playing on my friend’s keyboard in the evenings.

The little composition that began there has now been completed. Some of you have already heard it; it’s a rather odd little tune that jumps up and down all the time and can never quite agree on its beat, constantly switching between 3/8, 6/8, 7/8 and 8/8, and on occasion a 9/8, just for good measure; and just to confuse the pianist further it also switches between Ab, Gb and E major.

Having read a bit of music theory through my years (and even more as of lately), I realize how inadequate it is. It really doesn’t conform well to established musical patterns; the very fact that it incessantly switches beat all the time, inevitably marks it as a layman’s attempt at writing music. In several other ways, it’s… well, somewhat childish.

On the other hand, it’s quite fun to play, and it doesn’t sound altogether bad either, once you get used to the little occasional bumps in it. And, perhaps more importantly, I dedicated it a while ago to someone I know – the identity of whom, to protect the innocent, shall remain a mystery – and in doing so, I realized in a sudden moment of insight, that the musical qualities of this little piece actually, in a way, reminds me of her.

All things considered, for all its deficiencies, I’m thinking as follows: that, 1) if a composition is fun to play (which is half the reason to make music anyway), 2) it sounds rather well, and, 3) in its own peculiar qualities, it’s actually providing a meaningful context in regards to the person for whom it was written; then I think that this little piece has earned its right to exist, and not to be scrapped and thrown away.

Anyway, having said that, the true mark of any decent piece of music is whether it can stand the test of time. And since this was first started upon in 1997 and since then has survived in my mind for roughly ten years, my feelings about it may just be warranted.

Calaisa

My latest musical interest is a Swedish (!) country group called Calaisa (home page, wikipedia). It’s a country group from Malmö that apparently hit it big in Nashville and got a record contract with a large company. They have their first CD out now, called “Calaisa”.

I’m absolutely and positively surprised by this group. It’s real modern country, with four girls singing, traditional country instruments and yet they seem to at times mix in a little bit of Nordic folk instruments with adds an unusual touch to the music.

The CD starts off with a catchy tune called “Hey Girl”, goes right on to a very good song called “You are Mine”, and later comes up with a song called “Never Looking Back” with a wonderful refrain that gets stuck in your head in seconds. “Ready for the Storm” is a soft, melodic and sensitive piece, but it doesn’t linger long there but moves right into the happy “Sunday Paper”. It finishes with a more traditional folk music song called… “Röda Walters Special”, which is a bit odd and I think I’d like it more if it didn’t sound so much like a special-order pizza.

Anyway. Get the CD if you like country. It’s awesome.